i told myself today would be ‘me time’ but all i did was watch porn and netflix. i always have so much to do. work, clean, satisfy friends, that i never feel like i have time for myself. but when i take time, i don’t do anything useful. like create or take baths or read. and now it’s 9:50 PM and i have another 40+ hour week ahead until next weekend. i can’t say i don’t have time, because i waste so much of it.
i see all these people, other tumblrs, high school friends, work friends who are so put together, so motivated to be better. i know not to compare myself because everyone’s different but… i want to be motivated. i want to be put together. i want to be better. my problem is that i have so many excuses that i can’t seem to ditch.
i guess all i can do is try to manage myself better, but i know that i’ll only end up right back here.